Vekhozo Nyenga
A new day is supplemented to your life, and you found yourself no more in an age full of silliness and laughter galore, called “sweet sixteen”. You instigated to comprehend that you have to put all your entire energy into your personal life and your aspiration, whether you are just doing a favour for someone or grasping on a project, you trusted it has the potential to change your entire career path. You endeavor to impress them that you are mature enough; someone they can depend upon to get things right; someone who has voice to say; someone who has responsibility and need equal reverence from fellow being.
“Oh! Vekho, I wonder when you’ll get mature, perhaps I’ll never see you mature” she said with deep distress.
“Do I behave like child?” I quickly asked with intense curiosity to know the answer.
Ahhh @#*@!!!! Zing!!! I detested the quoted sentence, the comment was too pushy and provocative, it annoyed me, and I immediately thought to give her a piece of my mind but before long. Everybody, everyone I met started to barbed question on my mature ness. I began to hate all the words that were synonymous with child and cute. Very soon I wanted to gain consideration of “mature”, of what I don’t really understand; may be gaining ground of respect.
After ascertaining dozen of suggestion, I embraced all the chaos, and tied up all those loose ends into a beautiful preparation, just in order to similar myself with somebody whom I considered as mature. I tried several exercises, controlled almost everything I can probably afford; from laughing to playing, weaving a serious face, it speaks a volume of my struggle for maturation. It nearly moves heaven and earth. Happily I was anticipating good result but change affect different people in different ways, I was like falling into hot water. I established myself only being arrogant and distance person. I was stupidly smart that I failed to consider on the practical life of doing what I learn. In short it was a stressful experience with worst result. The word ‘mature’ was no more a joy for me then.
Truthfully, it is wise to contemplate other people’s opinions and viewpoints and perspectives, but in the end you have to make the choice that is right for you. Some intruder might be worried that you are not up to their prospect, and they might need a signal from you to confirm that you’re a mature. Its time to discontinue thinking so expansive and hard about yourself, what they said about you; some assumption just isn’t true. Remind yourself that you’re in charge of your life, be bold and trust yourself without getting to the bottoms of things as quickly as possible. Resist your urge and smile at what they are saying. The world we live in is full of sordid things but only through them we able to know and feel the beauty of life, isn’t it excite ting?
It is good that I walked away before things got too far. I wash my hands of the whole matter, whatever bad I might be I came to myself. I took time to enjoy myself and it enables me to learn many lessons, though most of them were through tears and pain. I realized we failed not because of the world around us but when we failed to understand our own self.” You are stupid” they alleged but I won’t let their observation hamper my dream, thanks I trust myself. Appreciation is given to Chris Wedge film for creating ‘Sid’ in “Ice Age” a character so talkative and careless. He is not much poles apart from me. Are you geared up for action; I bet you’d better be yourself.
Accepting my look was not a problem but accepting my name and age, opps #*@ I almost bit my head to bleed. I never fully belong to my family and clan until I love my own name. The hardest thing was accepting my age and if I still hide my age I wont be this far. Thanks to one of my high school senior. Last year during admission time I saw his birth certificate and shockingly he is three years younger than me. I didn’t oppose that but he began to support the certificate. Suddenly my weak mathematical brain started to calculate and I found, he went to school when he was practicing walking behind the yard and his vocabulary was around one thousand three hundred words; that too his mother tongue. I satirically praise him,” bro you are very brilliant,” ohh I hope he is not reading this. You can be cute of being young to a certain people- but if you get too cocky about it, you’re sure to end up making a fool of yourself.
Maturity is physically and mentally developed, but guard against been called,” mighty good for nothing.” Real maturity comes when you learn nothing last forever in this world; when you find nothing to be proud, sadly, proud people are those people who never go out of his pond; when you no longer miss interpret the smile of your class mate; when you worried more about others than yourself; when you respect others more than yourself; when you stop complaining about your weaknesses; when you stop blaming others when you face failure; when you realized to be happy, you have to make others happy; when you realized you cannot get along in life; when you learn lies can’t stand the truth; when you realize every day is gift and you don’t have enough time for hatred. kk too much to go!!!!
When you had the energy of maturation, who will not depend upon you to get their things right? Who will not hear your voice? Who will not respect you? I don’t really believe human being can fully develop but at least at the smallest amount I am maturing.
